Desperation

Last night I had a "rude awakening." And this has been one of the days when you suddenly feel defeated. Your mind races, you can't stop thinking, but nothing becomes clear. Confusion clouds the truth you once saw so clearly, doubt arises, and fear walks in...I feel cornered and violated, disturbed that by one short conversation I now feel the weight of bondage. I fear that if I try to shake it off and move forward, I may miss a very important lesson, but I also know that doubt, fear and confusion are NOT from God.
Am I alone in this, or have you also experienced a moment in life where you suddenly feel completely clueless about what you are doing and how you are suppose to do it? I believe I am treading in shallow water. I don't want to be foolish, nor do I want to be vulnerable and struck by an attack of the enemy. I know I must put my game face on and cry out for wisdom and discernment! Oh God, please rescue me!!

Forgive me for not elaborating on where my desperation is coming from, but if it is anything I am learning right now, it is to keep quiet. Unfortunately, opening up your heart to strangers equals opening up your self to vulnerability as well. I am under attack right now, and Proverbs says that even a foolish man that keeps his mouth shut may be perceived as wise...I have never felt so in need of God's protection as right now.