Need a 'pick me up?'

I found myself yet again in the very place I hate. Crying out to God for help. (Only because I got myself into a mess) I want to share this with you, because I believe that this is real life. The struggles we go through is a part of a pioneer's diary. I mess up in this life, but like I always say, "God makes beauty of our mess!"
So here it is raw and honest from my heart. This is a story of my Saturday morning, and of a God who is greater and more loving than any of us could ever comprehend!

....I began writing to pour out my emotions and this is what happened......


"Where is Jesus, the One who fulfills me? The One who gives me my true identity. How can I know God, yet still feel so empty inside?? Why am I so unhappy with this life that has been given to me? Why can't I stop complaining or get free from the bondage of fear? Why do I hate this person I have become?
Where are you Jesus? Why have you not rescued me from this life? Please free me from myself. I need your mighty right arm to pick me up out from this pit I am in. Where are you??

All I feel wrapped around me, is not your arms, but my shame. I hate who I have become. Please shine your light into my darkness. Lift this depression from me.

I HATE THIS LIFE. I only know how to disgrace myself and your name. I only know how to ruin every situation. I only know how to create messes and dig holes.

What a wretched person I am! So undeserving and unworthy of You."
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In the midst of my tears, I suddenly heard a still small voice say, "Read Psalms 34."

So after wiping my tears I grabbed my bible and read... 

"I will praise the Lord at all times; his praise is always on my lips. My whole being praises the Lord...I asked the Lord for help, and he answered me. He saved me from all that I feared. Those who go to him for help are happy, and they are never disgraced. This poor man called, and the Lord heard him and saved him from all his troubles. The angel of the Lord camps around those who fear God, and he saves them.
Examine and see how good the Lord is. Happy is the person who trust him. You who belong to the Lord, fear him! Those who fear him will have everything they need. Even lions may get weak and hungry, but those who look to the Lord will have every good thing.
You must do these things to enjoy life and have many happy days. You must not say evil things, and you must not tell lies. Stop doing evil and do good. Look for peace and WORK FOR IT!
The Lord hears good people when they cry out to him, and saves them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those whose spirits have been crushed.
People who do what is right may have many problems, but the Lord will solve them all!"


Wow! God has a way of quieting us, and He knows just the right thing to say!!! 

My life is proof of God's love. Sometimes we think we are the most undeserving person of his love. Yet, every time we find ourselves fallen, in the pit we dug, beat up, bruised and covered in shame, He comes to us! We run from him, then ask him to rescue me, and he does! He rescues us and whispers for us to stay near. He love us in the exact way we need but rarely deserve.  

He loves the undeserving, the unworthy, the unlovable. What an awesome God he is! Won't you take time today to open up your arms to His loving embrace? Let him make beauty of your mess.